cleansing .

Ever had a time where you just needed to get something out ? Ever had something bugging your or literally just bursting to get out? It's tough sometimes. But it's a cleansing process. And I think sometimes, it does more good to just get it out than to try to hold it inside ...Definitely true for tonight. Life talks, regardless with who, are just good.

" sometimes people change " .

What statement could possibly be more true. I'm not a big hip hop fan but there was a song by Tupac, I think it was called Life Goes On, that really struck a chord with me. There are so many events and experiences in your life and yet in the end, time keeps moving. It can't be paused, rewinded, or fast-forwarded. It's simply not possible. And while the good times seem to slide by with rapid ease, and the bad times seem to stick to you like Zap-A-Gap (haha, architecture joke...). And yet, time goes on regardless.

what i look for .

First off, just wanna thank you, Cameron, for just being yourself today. We certainly had a nice little chat and you definitely brightened my day 'cause it was a bit of a rough one. You didn't really know how much it helped, but you did. So thanks. You are a stellar advisor :)

And now what I really wanna talk about is what I look for in that one special person -- I spend a lot of time mulling over my thoughts and thinking about relationships or potential relationships or anything like that. It's been on my mind lately, and just figured I'd get it all out in a list of some shape or form. So here goes.

sickness .

Being sick sucks. It makes everything you do harder than it is, and harder than it should be. Sometimes you don't realize it -- but other times it's all you can possibly think about. I've been under the weather for about a week now and it's really beginning to just get tiresome. I should be getting more sleep to try to get better and I think instead I've ended up getting less. Not to mention I feel like a bum for not running at all and not really doing any sort of work out either. I'm hoping maybe to start up again soon and get on a regular schedule, but for right now, doing workouts is just another stress that is unneeded on an already-sick body...

frisbee !

After seeing many people playing outside on the Bowman and such last year, in addition to playing frisbee golf around campus, I had a strong desire to play ultimate this semester / this year. Or I suppose you could always just call it frisbee.

Music Monday #6

This week, the song is going to be Where'd You Go by the Mighty Mighty Bosstones.

super sunday .

The day started early, and I was definitely lacking in the sleep department. I opted to go to the 8am mass, in hopes that I would actually get some homework done (especially accounting) so that I could do some fun things today. I knew it would be a pretty packed day.. there was a lot planned.

mr. unproductive .

Why was today so stinkin' hard to get work done? I have a bit of an idea. But it still doesn't change the fact that I did absolutely nothing. Usually I just need to get in a groove to get accounting done. But today it was extra hard. No matter what, I'd read a couple of pages, and then all of a sudden be back to checking my email that I had just checked 2 seconds ago, and then checking my other email, then going on twitter, then youtube, then today's big thing, then back to email, then back to stupid internet videos, seeing who is on skype, tweeting something stupid, playing internet games like Mining Truck 2 (quite addicting, how fitting that I found it on addictinggames.com).

stress week '11 .

Friday marked the end of a fantastically difficult week. I'm not sure what it was but it was just rough. Between the review Monday, a test in German, and various other things, I felt so behind. But then, Friday felt like a Saturday. Architecture took a field trip to Columbia to visit the site for our next project. And while Columbia is definitely a crappy place (don't hate, you know it's true) it was great to get out of the studio and not really have any class.

the great debate .

Lately I've been unhappy with my digital professor for architecture. I feel like he's supposed to be helping us out with the new program of rhino, and not focusing on this stupid book about cinemetrics. I'm failing to understand both the meaning of the content of the book itself in addition to the relevance it has to what we're working on in studio.

And so, I began to formulate a letter today that we as a studio could potentially send to the department head or even someone above, that not only questions the current professor, but also the criteria that it used to determine whether or not a professor is qualified to teach a course.

meditation .

Back in high school, I was an active participant in my church's youth group. We had a fair number of retreats over the years, maybe usually about 2 per year; one in the fall and one in the spring. These were some of the best weekends in my life -- and really helped me to find my place with God. But one of the things that was greatest about them was the meditation.

It usually happened late on Saturday, or the morning of Sunday, as the retreats ran from Friday night to Sunday afternoon. And as it so happened, I was chosen to read it for everyone once.

Music Monday #5

So this week, I was stumbling upon Celtic music, and a video came up of Loreena McKennitt. I've always sort of been a fan of the celtic genre, but this woman has an absolutely gorgeous voice, and her voice is so soothing to listen to.

changing seasons : changing feelings .

So I'm kinda way behind on blogs and at the suggestion of a friend, figured I would write about how the changing of seasons also result in changing of feelings.

It's pretty insane how something as trivial as the weather can affect someone's mood so much. Although I can say from experience firsthand that it is absolutely 100% true. What we see outside first thing in the morning can either put a damper in your mood or a smile on your face. Sometimes I don't mind the pitter patter of the rain... but other times I dread the fact that I now not only have to walk to class but, which takes a long time, and get wet in the process of doing so.

family dinner fridays .

So, family dinner was last night, and again was a fantastical success.

What a great reason to all get together (and have some non-dining hall food while you're at it!) Smiles and laughter occur all around while the blue auras radiate 'round the room -- if only I could see them myself; I would confirm the knowledge that they were there. It's such a good way to end the week, and I am so thankful that it has been instituted.

walks .

Walking home the other night Jordan and I were walking through the cold dark night and he asked, so what's the interesting thing that you're gonna realize tonight?

I hadn't really realized it before, but there's something about the night that is just thought provoking. Maybe it's the walking through the night, but I'm sure it would happen just as easily in a car on on a board or on a bike. I've always loved driving at night, and I can't tell you why; it's just awesome.

looking for a blog .

Hey guys, I've been thinking lately and what would be really sweet is to find a blog that I can regularly follow.  I like writing them... believe me, I really do. But I like reading them a lot too. Getting that window into someone's life is pretty cool, even if you don't even know them. I kindof imagine it in the sense of the youtube community -- everyone at home is sitting in front of their computers, doing their own thing -- and yet, youtube has events and meetups and stuff where you can meet the people that follow you and your vlogs or your videos or whatever.

something different .

So lately I realized I've sort of just been narrating my life a bit in these blogs, and I think that I really need to begin to work to get back to the sort of posts with the topics in them. I guess in some ways I usually have some sort of point when I write about the general events that go on in my day, but I have a feeling that it's not exactly interesting to read about all the homework and lack of fun things that I did that day. So here's something that occurred to me the other day:

a few days back

so I've missed a few days of blogs, but I promise you I'll make them up.

On Tuesday, I went to Cooper with some people, in order to get some work done and just for a change of scenery. I try to migrate between my apartment, my neighbor's apartment, the studio, the Central Spirit office, and Cooper Library. I was feeling pretty behind on things and I figured that it was time to really hunker down and get some work done for good.

Music Monday #4

So Superbowl Sunday yesterday, good game -- but one thing that really stuck out was the commercial Imported from Detroit... Chrysler really outdid themselves this time. I really want to buy a Chrysler 200. Anyways, that commercial is here:

good start , good day

This morning was pretty baller. Some quality apartmate time was spent, and I suppose in this case it would be considered roommate time, since it was with Jordan.

Unfortunately the usual church crowd was broken up for the weekend, since Emily was gone snowboarding and Maggie was celebrating her 19th with the parentals in Atlanta, and I didn't know if Nick was planning on going at all. So I figured I would just be going to church on my own, and happened to mention it to Jordan, who was like, hmm, I think I might go.

a letter .

You don't know it. But you bug me.
You think we're cool, but in all honesty, we're really not.

Why are you so disrespectful? And it's not just to me either ... it's to everyone around you. And the worst part is you're oblivious -- blind to the rift that you're slowly creating.

finally friday .

This week was incredibly difficult, and managed, despite my wishes, to drag along at a snail's pace ! It always feels great to make it to the end of the week, knowing that you have a few days to sort of catch up on anything you need to do, but also to have a bit of respite from a stressful schedule and a stressful workload. I'm pretty pumped, because this weekend I think I might actually have some free time, assuming I stay focused of course.

i know it's late...

I didn't write a blog for yesterday, so I'd like to do that now. Apologies on its lateness, but it just happens every so often. Last night I pulled an almost-all-nighter with Josh. We were in the library for awhile, working on things that we both needed to get done. Time passes, we procrastinate, and more time passes, and eventually the night slips away.

a short song since i don't know what to write about .

whisper to the wind because i cannot fly
and i'm working my way now along til i die
despite all the things that i have done thus far
just wanna be right where you are

this cold callous winter is all that i've got
and it's probably saying i'm something i'm not
when all of my memories well up inside
i swear i've got nothing to hide

breathe in and out and i'll turn 'round and shout
do you hear me and what i am talking about
i imagine myself floating up to the clouds
wherever it's not quite so loud

displeasing are some of the things that i see
and it's intoxicating i swear just to breathe
when all of the trees move apart just for me
i'm going home now, finally

i feel it around me just swallow me up
and when you get here i'll say that's just enough
help you and me and we'll soon just break free
and wander through all of the trees

the ocean air tickles with salty sweet air
and the breeze how it whistles as it goes through my hair
if you try to look as far as i can see
then turn 'round and now it's just me




wrote all of this sort of on a whim, but I'm surprisingly satisfied with it. No lyric of the day today, since the above sort of substitutes for that. And ps, Taylor is not a jerk and actually a pretty sweet person. :)

monsoon .

Well, here I was just saying the other day that we had magically escape the torrential downpours of January and February that Clemson is notorious for. And yet, here we are, sitting in the middle of what some may call a straight-up monsoon. Looks like it's time to sacrifice Pierre Tong again to appease the weather gods....