difficulty letting go .

Parents always say that they have a terrible time trying to let go. I never really understood that -- as it was and always has been my goal to escape from the house as much as possible, out of reach and out of sight of my parents. It's one of the reasons I went to school far away. I would imagine that when I have kids of my own, I might get it. I might finally understand why it's so hard.

what causes attraction .

It virtually seems like magic. It's something that can barely be explained, and yet it continues to happen. I sure don't know how it begins. Sometimes it's sudden, sometimes you can slide into it. Either way, an attraction between two people seems to come out of nowhere, and while it sometimes will crash and burn, sometimes there is the chance that it will blossom into something beautiful.

Music Monday #13

I never really discovered Dashboard Confessional to its full potential until recently. I only had a few songs, some that I knew about because of a youth group 'stations of the cross' that we put on each year. Or maybe the song "Vindicated" because of the Spiderman soundtrack. Although one day recently I downloaded the Dashboard Confessional discography on a whim. I think it's pretty much changed my life...

things that make me happy .

There's been a lot of things that I've experience or had to deal with in my life that may have made me sour over time. It's not easy to get past those things -- but over time there have been things that regardless of how I'm feeling, it just makes it better. So this is just a quick list of the things that make me happy -- and it's not limited in any way, and I'm sure there are things that just slipped my mind.

summer goals .

As the summer months rapidly approach, with only finals week left to complete in school, I felt it more than appropriate to talk about what I wanted to achieve this summer.

It seems that every summer I have a sort of general list of things I want to do, people I want to see, etc. And yet somehow those things never get completed, as I fall into the monotonous routine of just being lazy, watching lots of tv, or playing on my laptop for hours on end.

you won't remember, but i will .

Ever have those people that you meet, that actually impact you in some sort of way, but you kinda get the feeling that in their mind, you'll just sort of blow away with the wind? Maybe it's something really trivial that happened that just really touched you .. and yet it was just a part of the everyday life of another.

e-love .

As social networking becomes more and more prevalent in today's society the question arises, at least for me, at what point has it gone too far? At what point do we finally take a step back and say, hey, why can't we just go out and meet people instead of staying on the internet? Granted, the internet provides virtually limitless possibilities, and since facebook basically took over and became one of the largest social networking sites, if not the largest, it is so easy to go around skimming over people like you're shopping in a supermarket. Pictures, videos, statuses, wall conversations.

But it doesn't stop there.

a voice through words .

I love how how a person writes can be a characteristic of who they are. With some people, you can read what they write and actually hear them saying it inside your head. Maybe that's an effect of just knowing them really well, or maybe it's just hearing them speak and then relating it to the words. But I think people tend to just write how they would speak.

occupation & career .

Over the course of a lifetime it is now expected that people will change careers a multitude of times. Isn't is weird how something that was once so concrete, your single and solitary career, could suddenly become such a temporary thing? Perhaps this is the classic boredom factor -- people want to mix it up, they want new things. And if that career doesn't give them new things and new experiences and exciting experiences on a regular basis, well, then they're just going to drop it and quit.

This is not so for me.

Music Monday #12

Brandon Heath is one of the people I sort of discovered on a whim. I vaguely remember my mother mentioning him one time, and I probably heard him on Christian radio in the car while driving with her when I was younger. So I guess you could say he was always there, but I just didn't know who he was.

quick update .

Hey guys, so I've been under a lot of pressure to get a whole ton of work done -- we are approaching the end of the semester, and this week and next is the time when architecture is the busiest. All of a sudden people realize that there are really only two weeks left and it gets really hectic. Despite the fact that I am a week behind on blogs, I promise I will get to them eventually. I have a lot of topics I want to address, and discuss and just sorta rant and rave on about (in a good way, not in a complaining way). I like just exploiting my stream-of-consciousness thought process and implanting it upon the page and seeing what happens with that. So, that being said, bear with me for another week or so, and I promise I'll get back to the everyday deal soon enough. I've been keeping track of how many I've missed, and fully intend to bring that number back up to pace as soon as things settle down a bit.

Thanks for your patience.

i'm disappointed .

So as ridiculous as college acb is, I went on there the other day and just sorta browsed around, wasting some time. Everyone says don't take things on there seriously. And to some extent, I completely agree. But there are some things said on there that people truly believe. For example, I've realized in my time down here that the North-South debate very much still exists.

moving out .

It's a weird feeling to think that I'll soon be moving out of my house. In a sense, we've all sort of done that already -- at least I have. 8-9 months out of the year, I'm checked out of Jersey and in South Carolina. Sure, perhaps it's not my favorite place to be, but I'm there and more or less on my own. Just like in "real life" as I like to call it, there are requirements and responsibilities, deadlines to meet, and of course you need to take care of yourself too.

childhood .

Things were so easy when you were little. Get up. Eat the breakfast that was already sitting for you. Put on the clothes Mom laid out for you. Take the bus to school for like half a day and go home and do what you want. Swing on the swing set, get Mom to take you to the park, ride your tricycle around the driveway -- but make sure you don't go in the street, or Mom will get mad. In an attempt to both get my point across, I'm going to try something I recently saw on another blog I follow, but in a slightly different manner. A mother had to write what she thought her daughter would say about her, in her daughter's own words. And thus, I'm going to write about my childhood, as childhood me.

transcending reality .

I took AP physics in high school, and the class was an absolute miserable time, academically anyways. The teacher was the man, he was just tough and didn't take any crap. The kids I took it with were fun too, despite the common misconception that we were all nerds. We worked our butts off, but had fun doing it. Now before I begin rambling incessantly, I'm going to focus on the point at hand.

imagination .

Do you remember the days of childhood? Everything I did was imagined. Well, not everything. But you could take something trivial and virtually meaningless -- and turn it into something. A certain video comes to mind here...

Music Monday #11

So this was really supposed to be last Monday, but oh well. I'm wayyyyy behind on posts, and I know that. I apologize to you guys because I know a lot of you check daily to see if there's something new. Well. In the next day or 2, I'm going to do my best to catch up. So friends, on that note, this music Monday is going to be devoted to dabears.

travel .

Given unlimited money and time, I think I would just go everywhere in the world. I want to see it all, and I've always sort of felt that way. I can't imagine staying in one place my entire life. Granted, at some point you just sorta gotta settle down and have a family. But if that plan doesn't work out, I really don't think I'll have of the problem of just going around doing my own thing. Although, that's going to make it quite hard to hold down a job, yes? Probably.

the northern public .

I watched a video that popped up on AOL news recently, and it was about the general feeling of riding around on a subway in New York City. In some way I guess it could have been hinting about the general apathy one has about those around them. There was a video that was there, which will be posted below. But they mentioned how despite the fact that all of these people are in the same place, doing the same things, riding the public transportation; none of them talk, people don't acknowledge each other, and some don't even make eye contact. I can vouch for this. And in all honesty, I do the exact same thing as those people. You can be wedged into a subway car packed in like sardines, but you just sorta avert your eyes until you can get off. People are just another obstacle in the way, not really someone you want to sit down and talk to.

vlogging v. blogging .

It's crazy to think how long I've been writing. But it's also crazy the number of other people that do it. Even still, it's astonishing at the number of things on youtube. You can find anything, in any category. The internet has truly made the world of accessibility virtually limitless. With a few keyboard taps and clicks of the mouse, you can find exactly what you want. Sometimes that's good sometimes that's bad, but that's besides the point.

this is how I write .

When I first started blogging, everything would flow out no problem. Sure, the thoughts might be jumbled, but that happens sometimes. It was all more or less in stream of consciousness. And maybe it's that now I just get more distracted more easily. Or that I'm just easily distracted in general, which is certainly a possibility. But over time I've sort of fallen into the habit of writing a bit on a topic, and then just switching and doing something else and sort of mulling over it while I do that other thing.

i can't wait .

For awhile now,  I've known that Owl City has a new record coming out. The album is entitled "All Things Bright and Beautiful," and I truly cannot wait for it. I keep thinking to myself and wonder how the heck I am going to wait all the way until May 17th for it to be out. It's then that I truly realize that Owl City is probably my favorite artist. I've never been able to say that before.