I'm going to be really vague here for a moment... Just not comfortable sharing exactly what's on my mind yet, partially because I haven't really figured it out myself. So just bear with me, and I'm sorry if this post is a load of crap to you.
There are a lot of times that I totally overthink things. I've always been a worrier, and sometimes when you get that unsettling feeling in your stomach, your mind drives you crazy. Being more of an introvert, I don't talk as much, and I think a lot. In fact, I could probably write a book about all the things I think about in depth on a daily basis. And so lately, I've begun to think about a few specific things more than others. And I noticed those smallest changes that might pass by unnoticed by others. And naturally at that point I get to thinking -- and wondering what happened and what they mean and what it means for me. I do my best to stay positive and hopeful that I am just tricking myself, that I am just being ridiculous, though a few times in the past my over-thoughts have become a reality, and the fact that my neurotic brain's concoctions have even come to life once is unsettling in and of itself. And so for now I stay silent and pray for the best. I do know that no matter what, I won't be dealt anything in life that I can't handle. Sometimes that's hard to accept, as some things will always feel impossible.
Given that a lot of people who blog are introverts, have you guys ever been here? Letting your mind trick you into worrying about something when it's probably really no threat at all? Well today my worry has consumed me and I have felt unable to focus on pretty much anything.
I guess tomorrow is another day and I'll just have to see how that one fares. Asking for prayers, though, friends.